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Well, after the excitement of finding a local raw dairy supplier and enjoying the process of learning and creating ghee, dairy in all forms (from cow’s milk at least) will be put on hold once again.

I really crave the stuff, and seemingly no amount of purity, or the type, whether it’s milk, butter or yogurt can I eat regularly without some side effects. Like my trouble with eggs and a few other foods, for the most part my reaction manifests as cravings and wacky brain fog. Regardless of how healthy it may and ‘should’ be, when your sat there trying desperately not to spoon a whole jar of ghee into your mouth, you know the food has crossed that line between simply tasting good and feeding an addiction. Attempting tiny doses unfortunately doesn’t really help either.

It has been a little tough to rationalise, but perhaps a useful reality check. Having been caught up somewhat in the Western A Price philosophy, and the dietary advice of Sally Fallon, Dr Thomas Cowan etc, raw milk almost has a god like status. There is certainly no denying the benefits that some experience, however if you are predisposed to the addictive nature of dairy, I suspect it may be a long time, possibly even a permanant problem caused by significant dairy ‘abuse’ prior to becomming ill. I wouldn’t consign myself to never being able to eat dairy again, just that until significant healing of both the gut and liver have taken place I suspect I will continue to react. I suspect it’s the opioids that I react to which will be present in all forms of dairy.

This puts me at a bit of a crossroads in the terms of improving on the SCD or GAPs diets. My sensitivity to sauerkraut is really strong, again seemingly having a predominantly neurological effect and cravings go off the charts. Bone broths are questionable, and I’ve not been confident with capsulated probiotics either, some of them seemingly tying up my liver.I’ve not yet ruled out goat’s milk, but naturally am not too eager to try based on the above. The SCD yogurt is still a possibility sometime down the line.

So this week I’m going to try not to focus on ‘strategy’ or what I’m going to do next but instead just eat the foods I believe I’m okay with at the moment, aim to get the best amount of sleep my body will allow, and dare I say it try not to worry to much about my health. Perhaps in this state something will come to me more naturally.

In other news, the house hunt continues! Would LOVE to have my own place and feel this would benefit my lifestyle significantly. As I’m finding out though it’s a bit of a long drawn out process, and perfection in a property doesn’t really exists! I’ll need to think about what’s most important in terms of price, location, size etc. An enema friendly on-suite bathroom would be nice!

Anywho, Sunday evening Call of Duty and Top Gear awaits.